Summer is a time for road construction all across the United States. You thought you were on your way. Smooth sailing ahead! But now you sit. Hungry and thirsty, your kids have to go to the bathroom, and you are waiting on a pilot car that doesn't come. The delay is gobbling up precious time, and all you want to do is MOVE! Has that ever happened to you?
Sometimes life feels that way. You are filled with lots of questions and very little answers. Did I go the wrong way? Was there an easier path? Did I miss a sign? How did I get here?
I have discovered that my thoughts have formed neat little rows in my brain. Grooves, you might say. It takes time. A LOT of time and intentionality to retrain your brain. Those grooves have to be dismantled. The carefully formed paths of thought processes, all that you thought you knew, all of your plans and expectations, becomes very hard ground. Like a well known freeway. All of those roads have to be painfully grated away. It makes you sit up and take notice. To really lean in and listen to God for the next turn.
I have decided, from now on I only want good roads in my head. God roads.
I think as human beings, we struggle for control. We have an innate desire to feel safe, to be protected. Most people go to great lengths to isolate themselves from discomfort and pain. We wrestle for control. In my struggle to re-imagine life, much has been revealed about who I have been and who I want to be. I want to live as though God is my source. Because my heart knows that He is. (Again, it's those darn grooves in my brain!) My employer is not my source. Neither are my charitable friends, not my husband, not my family.
All my worry, my fussing and moaning, my tears and tantrums, pleading my case as I tell Him how it should work out is absolutely worthless. When His delay of "maybe" turns into "no", you've got to rely more on God's mercy than ever. The bottom line is, life is unpredictable and only God has the ability to control everything.
I am learning that I am not God. I don't know the future, and I certainly can't control it. He quietly says, "Do you trust me?"
Um... I'm trying. Help me be a quick learner, God. Then within a period of 2 days, I received scriptures of encouragement from multiple friends. All about TRUST. (of course) Maybe you need to be encouraged today too.Psalm 91...I will say of the Lord, “He is my refuge and my fortress,
my God, in whom I trust.”
Psalm 91...He will cover you with his feathers,
and under his wings you will find refuge;
his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart
Psalm 91...For he will command his angels concerning you
to guard you in all your ways;
they will lift you up in their hands,
so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.
Psalm 61....From the ends of the earth I call to you,
I call as my heart grows faint;
lead me to the rock that is higher than I.
Psalm 62...Yes, my soul, find rest in God;
my hope comes from him.
Truly he is my rock and my salvation;
he is my fortress, I will not be shaken.
My salvation and my honor depend on God[c];
he is my mighty rock, my refuge.
I pray that through God's words, you have felt His presence. Here are 5 bits of wisdom for today to help you learn to trust and rest in His care. These things are helping me.
1. Remind yourself how BIG God is.
2. Know that He sees you.
3. Get away from the noise and listen for the still small whisper of God.
4. Embrace the posture of humility.
5. Express your gratitude.